TM is an editor and freelance writer living in Lakewood, Colorado. She has been enthralled with the written word since childhood. At age 10, she developed her own magazine and named it the Groovy Gazette, typing out copies by hand and distributing it to neighborhood friends. Over the years, she has written numerous poems and prose. Although TM was clinically diagnosed 7 years ago, the seeds of mental
illness were planted in her childhood, more than 30 years ago. She is
currently undergoing psychotherapy: this she describes as learning to create a kaleidoscope from broken shards of glass.
I was an emotionally sensitive child, yet expressing my feelings
and needs often went unnoticed or was met with disapproval. My trusting nature and hunger for nurturing led me into a situation where that trust was violated. I learned that my feelings and needs were not OK -- in fact, that they were dangerous.
More than 30 years ago, a part of me went into hiding, behind layers of denial and dissociation. This vulnerable "child" remained hidden for over 30 years. However, it has only been in the last 7 years, since my major breakdown and entrance into therapy, that I have begun to rediscover this lost part of myself.