Elegy For The Cat 'Tibby'
In the end your nine lives were not enough. One by one they reduced you to the final one against which there was neither cunning nor wisdom enough to protect you; there was only your last life left to be taken.
Nine years old and I loved you as if my life depended on it. It did but in ways I could not then suspect: you were my sick, my dying cat to whose aid I called all the saints of heaven who one by one refused you until I even bargained with the devil for your life.
But prayers and pacts, a neighbour's advice, none of it worked. Daily you weakened to the disease which claimed you that dreaded word my parents whispered to each other though I'd had the same disease at seven- why then could you not recover? Was love not strong enough to clean your bones and make you whole when once it had reopened tombs to let long-dead men walk again?
I remember the last day most of all "Dying is worse than death", they told me, "after that there is peace". The first death, the first lie, these are the facts you always remember and that cruelty I live with yet- my father made me drown you.
copyright 2001Martin Burke |